Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Yup..today was the PSL auditions...sad to say, I did not get in...Reason? Well, I got very nervous because the PSLs who interviewed me didn't look very friendly and were just...there...all quiet and serious and stuff. So obviously, I got nervous and couldn't think of what to say. Thus, I did not get in. I'm not sad however...somehow, I feel as if it doesn't really matter. I mean, so what if I didn't get in? I have alot of other values...Now, let's go through them one by one...- I have good grades. (very important to me)
- I'm selected for a chinese composition competition...(currently only I...)
- I scored well for my mid-year.
- I'm one of the 8 girls that were dancing by ourselves (as in 8 together) in the dance item.
- I'll have more time for studying and my computer games.
- More time to go to the library.
- Not worried about test grades.
- Getting good marks for math.
- Not much stress.
- I have 2 CCAs to juggle, which is why this may not work out.
- I only have Thursday to return home early currently...not able to have any PSL meetings.
- Everyone makes mistakes and alot of people weren't chosen.
- Only 25 in the level are.
So yes, after scanning through these points, I feel so much better. And when they asked if I would go for dance or PSL meeting, I said dance...CCA comes first, of course. Its not as if not being a PSL would kill me. I'm already stressed as it is. CL reading club, dance club, math olympiad (course starting after science enrichment), science enrichment and many others...So actually, I don't really feel that sad, as first things come first, and no offense, but somehow PSL duty to me, is not as important as the other duties I have. I'll end up skipping my duties and die of stress..(literally)
Yes, of course I'm saddened...but the point is, if I think about it, my life is already complete...and its the same even if I'm not a PSL. I have great friends, family, financially stable and good in my studies. Well, there's still the growing up and earning lotsa moolah, but hey, if I think about it, I already feel so complete.
Oh, and the quote that I live by, "Any man can make mistakes, only an idiot persists on it".
I don't think I'm an idiot...
written at 6:23 pm
